Notes from an Orphan

I been a orphan for over three months. At firss I thot I would quit SLiving but I pushed myself to stay in school at least. Thankfully too cause being on my own kinna forced me to do things I never dun before. Like meet lotsa new people an lettem get close. My frens are now my fambily.

I also been on many fambily trials. An thass kinna wats brought me to write tonite.

Alla trials I had inna lass three months have all taught me sumpthing about tha world of second life an about my own self. Im grateful for alla them. An many of them are still in my life today. I now know wat I want an wat I really dont want inna fambily.

But I also see patterns with people.

Growd ups get really essited to play house. Summa them fall in love an get married an then think it will be fun an cute to have a SL kid an start a fambily. But wat thay dont take inna consideration is tha feelings of us SL kids. Thay love tha idea that a lil one adores them an looks up to them. But then after a day or a week or a month tha newness wears off an parents get bored an thay toss us aside.

I juss dont gettit.

For tha record potential parents, kids are kids. We are needy an dependent. If we werent, we would be growd ups like you. If you wanna start a fambily please be shur you are ready for tha commitment. Take note...

Things I am
a child, dependent, curious, emotional, growing, loyal, needy, loving

Things I am not
your mini therapist, your new bestie, your partner, your bank, your slave, your new shiny toy, arm candy, a fashion accessory, a mind reader


Im discouraged tonite. Im disappointed in sum people I really thot had their fambily values in check. But I gess its all for show. Im still deciding wat it is I wanna do as far as immediate fambily. It seems Im best on my own. But Im not a SL kid to be fully independent. I have a growd up for that.

On another side, Im really impressed with sum other people an their ability to be honest an show up an be loving. Thay are my forever fambily, my extended fambily, my friend-fambily. I gess thass allat matters rite now.

The Beauty Coin

Homework # 2

To receive a Beauty coin, you must seek an opportunity during that week where you act with beauty. It could be doing something nice for someone, sharing something special with a friend, anything you want. You can then choose to either write a journal entry about how you acted beautifully, or draw a picture of what you did to show beauty to others.

This was our homework assignment. Ive chosen many opportunitys to act with beauty. I been especially more aware of it inna last cuppla days since getting this homework. But Im struggling with tha actual assignment of writing about it. To me an act of beauty stands beautiful on its own. To write about how I acted beautifully somehow stains the beauty of the act. I would much rather write about an act of beauty I experienced or one that I witnessed or heard about. Beauty is an experience.

For instance, I am between fambilys rite now. My really close fren has found her perfeck fambily (finally) an I coudnt be happier for her. I met her fambily one nite anna cuppla hours later, outta tha blue, thay offered to be my foster parents. Juss like that. Thay had no intentions of adding any more kids to their lives. An I had stopped looking for fambily. But thay did a beautiful act by opening their home an fambily to me.

There are so many examples of beautiful acts just like this in my daily life. Its wat inspires me to give back or pay it forward. Whether I am acting in beauty, witnessing beauty or experiencing beauty, its all beautiful.